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  24 FEBRUARY

  My sister’s sewing basket, spools of a humble seamstress.

  25 FEBRUARY

  Lincoln death mask. We honor his elegant simplicity.

  26 FEBRUARY

  This was my father’s cup. On occasion he would call us into the kitchen, pour some coffee, then read aloud “Abou Ben Adhem,” by Leigh Hunt. It contained his personal philosophy that seems fixed within his empty cup.

  27 FEBRUARY

  Happy birthday to Ralph Nader, whom my father admired for his lifelong service to the people. He felt that Ralph lived up to the words in his favorite poem. “Write me as one that loves his fellow men.”

  28 FEBRUARY

  With Lenny Kaye by the sea, Byron Bay, Australia. Fifty years of work and friendship.

  29 FEBRUARY

  Fred Sonic Smith and I made a wish on this date as the full moon rose over Michigan; the following day we leapt into our new life. Thinking of that night, I sometimes toss a coin in my old Spanish well, sending future leap year wishes to all.

  01 MARCH

  With Fred before the Mariners’ Church of Detroit, where we were wed on March 1, 1980. When alchemy was real.

  02 MARCH

  This table was used in the famed World Chess Championship between Bobby Fischer and Boris Spassky in Reykjavik, Iceland, in 1972. Though the table is modest in appearance, every move made on its board reverberated around the world, as the brilliant upstart Fischer royally defeated Spassky, the reigning champion from the Soviet Union.

  03 MARCH

  This is the grave of Bobby Fischer. As he craved solitude, he chose to be buried next to a small white clapboard church near the village of Selfoss, a stone’s throw from where Iceland ponies graze.

  04 MARCH

  These photographs of Antonin Artaud by Georges Pastier were kept in a cigar box near Artaud’s bed in the asylum in Ivry-sur-Seine where he died. I imagine the poet alone in his room gazing at them, the double of himself.

  05 MARCH

  Happily working with the gentle and indefatigable Werner Herzog on English and German interpretations of Artaud’s Peyote Dance for Soundwalk Collective at the historic Electric Lady Studios.

  06 MARCH

  Georgia O’Keeffe’s bed.

  07 MARCH

  Everything in the adobe dwelling and studio in Abiquiú breathes of Georgia O’Keeffe. The surface of the walls, the ladder, the surrounding landscape, and the dry bones beyond.

  08 MARCH

  On International Women’s Day we remember the graceful Iranian mathematician Maryam Mirzakhani, the only woman to win the Fields Medal, mathematics’ highest honor. She was the maestro of curved spaces, and one can barely conceive of the celestial landscape of her elastic mind. Mirzakhani died of cancer at the age of forty, counted in the stars as the queen of geometric imagination.

  09 MARCH

  Jesse on the march.

  10 MARCH

  All I needed in Paris.

  11 MARCH

  Rockaway Beach. My trusty CD player is all I need to listen to my favorite music. In another corner, awaiting rotation, are Ornette Coleman, Philip Glass, Marvin Gaye, and REM.

  12 MARCH

  At the Waldorf Astoria hotel with Michael Stipe. We were about to be inducted into the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame, and entered the ballroom together, each comprehending the other.

  13 MARCH

  The Alexander McQueen T-shirt given to me by Michael upon the designer’s death. I have worn it so many times performing, thinking of McQueen, the Mozart of cloth.

  14 MARCH

  On the birthday of photographer Diane Arbus, I am spending time with Revelations, a magnificent presentation of her work and process. Gazing at her face, I picture her in 1970, entering the lobby of the Chelsea Hotel with a manifest sense of purpose and ever-present camera, her third eye.

  15 MARCH

  My bed in Rockaway.

  16 MARCH

  Wo Hop in Chinatown, frequented by musicians for over eighty years. In the early seventies, after a third set at CBGB, we’d all head to 17 Mott Street, where the wooden tables held the scent of oolong tea, and a big bowl of duck congee cost under a dollar. It still remains, below the stairs, visited by hungry ghosts.

  17 MARCH

  My bass player Tony Shanahan, the son of Irish immigrants. His father was a revered baker; Tony has the flour and soil of Ireland dusting his musician hands.

  18 MARCH

  My cup, a gift from Jesse.

  19 MARCH

  This is my mother, Beverly Williams Smith, who gave me life and guided my first steps.

  20 MARCH

  The Vernal Equinox ushers in World Storytelling Day. This is Sophie Gengembre Anderson’s portrait of Scheherazade, literature’s most beguiling weaver of tales, whose stories famously stayed the hand of the sultan, who fell in love and spared her life. Her legacy is the classic One Thousand and One Nights.

  21 MARCH

  World Poetry Day. The convalescing child’s bible.

  22 MARCH

  Jay Dee Daugherty, meditative master of cymbals, my extraordinary drummer since 1975.

  23 MARCH

  West Virginia. A light snow fell as I listened to the Seventh Symphony, carried away from all cares.

  24 MARCH

  The Empire State Building, our queen, was once the world’s tallest building. Though now surpassed in height, none has eclipsed her stoic beauty.

  25 MARCH

  Poet Frank O’Hara—on a lunch break—cigarettes and telephone.

  26 MARCH

  This is my other camera, the equalizer.

  27 MARCH

  Freedom Tower. The geometry of architecture obscured by cloud.

  28 MARCH

  Cairo is mesmerized by the history of the medicinal properties of the lemon.

  29 MARCH

  Taking some time out from spring-cleaning to consult my childhood mentor, Little Lulu, champion of mischief and imagination.

  30 MARCH

  Tokyo. A close encounter with Ultraman.

  31 MARCH

  Jesse and I making self-pictures.

  01 APRIL

  Today is the birthday of Nikolai Gogol, the great Russian-Ukrainian writer, who once wrote, “A word aptly uttered or written cannot be cut away with an axe.”

  02 APRIL

  Black coat with handkerchief.

  03 APRIL

  Black coat without its peak.

  04 APRIL

  The poet Arseny Tarkovsky and his son, Andrei. One can only imagine the interior world of the child who would one day gift us with Ivan’s Childhood, Andrei Rublev, Nostalgia, The Sacrifice: a body of cinematic masterpieces. On the birthday of Andrei Tarkovsky, we celebrate both him and his father.

  05 APRIL

  Michigan, 1991. Little Jesse keeping up.

  06 APRIL

  Jesse before Rome’s Pantheon, the burial place of Raphael, the youthful Renaissance master who died on his thirty-seventh birthday. Known for his beauty in countenance and spirit, it was said that Nature wanted him for herself.

  07 APRIL

  The last painting of Raphael, depicting the Transfiguration, the alchemized Messiah.

  08 APRIL

  St. Michael and All Angels Churchyard, East Sussex. The poet Oliver Ray in close proximity to the unquiet grave.

  09 APRIL

  Charles Baudelaire was born today in 1821. He believed that genius was childhood recovered at will. This belief carried him through his darkest hours, when he dipped his pen into an inkwell yet another time.

  10 APRIL

  This palm, woven in Barcelona, represents Jesus’ entrance into Jerusalem, where the people lay their cloaks and palms on the path before him. Jesus knows what lies ahead, accepting a brief moment of triumph, comprehending the consequences.

  11 APRIL

  Drawing energy, channeling the path of Andrei Rublev.

  12 APRIL

  Sam reading Beckett. Midway, Kentucky.

  13 APRIL

  Samuel Beckett, the great Irish playwright, was born in 1906 on Friday the thirteenth. He was Sam Shepard’s literary hero. Sam would recite whole passages of Beckett’s work by heart. We often quoted his line “I can’t go on, I’ll go on.” No matter the circumstances, it always made us laugh.

  14 APRIL

  Anne Sullivan, the American teacher who led young Helen Keller out of the darkness. On her birthday, we mark with gratitude the generosity and sacrifices of our teachers.

  15 APRIL

  Good Friday, Recoleta Cemetery, Buenos Aires.

  16 APRIL

  Though her transient life was one of sacrifice and physical suffering, Bernadette Soubirous, a peasant girl from Lourdes, had a vision in a grotto that manifested as a healing spring that strengthened the faith of others.

  17 APRIL

  He is risen. Drawing of the Mystic Lamb by e.g. walker.

  18 APRIL

  Jean Genet, poet, dramatist, author, and activist, died in Paris but was laid to rest in an old Spanish cemetery by the sea in Larache, Tanger-Tetouan-Al Hoceima. He is surrounded by the scent of wild flowers, stinging salt, and the laughter of children.

  19 APRIL

  By the poet’s grave, the child Ayoub handed me a silk rose. A small miracle.

  20 APRIL

  Uluru. The formation of dreams.

  21 APRIL

  Privileged to touch its sacred skin.

  22 APRIL

  Earth Day.

  Supplication to Nature

  If we be blind, if we turn away from Nature, garden of the soul,

  She will turn on us. In place of songbird, the shrill cry

  of the locusts devouring the harvest, the terrible crackling

  of the blazing rainforest, the peatlands smoldering, the seas rising,

  cathedrals flooding, the Arctic shelf melting, the Siberian

  wood burning, the Barrier Reef bleached as the bones

  of forgotten saints. If we be blind, failing in

  our supplication to Nature, species will die, the bee

  and the butterfly driven to extinction.

  All of Nature nothing more than an empty

  husk, the unholy ghost of an abandoned

  hive.

  23 APRIL

  A small corner of treasured things. My father’s cup, my Ethiopian cross, Sam’s knife, the Libertine’s ring.

  24 APRIL

  The Ethiopian ceremonial cross represents everlasting life and contains within it an elaborate latticework, an intricate world of small consonant systems.

  25 APRIL

  Paris. Jack’s Hotel, in the thirteenth arrondissement. Jean Genet died here, in a small room on the second floor, on April 15, 1986. Suffering with throat cancer, he spent his last days correcting the galleys of Prisoner of Love.

  26 APRIL

  Coffee and Anna Kavan, on the birthday of the enigmatic e.g. walker.

  27 APRIL

  Mexico City. The clock on the wall of Café La Habana, where the Savage Detectives used to meet, spar, write, and drink mescal.

  28 APRIL

  This is the birthday of the Chilean poet and writer Roberto Bolaño. At the end of his fleeting life, he sat upon this chair, threw a net over the twentieth century, and articulated its degeneration in 2666, the first masterpiece of the new millennium.

  29 APRIL

  These days some plans are made optimistically, knowing they have a great percentage of not happening. Yet the Imagination reigns. In that respect we can go anywhere, save by the plot of doubt.

  30 APRIL

  1951. Germantown, Pennsylvania. An image of pure happiness—my first bicycle. In my Easter coat, ready to ride off into the world.

  01 MAY

  When I was young, May Day was also called children’s day, a time of ribbons and white dresses, turning in circles in the bright fields and fashioning garlands of wildflowers.

  02 MAY

  In the garden of Pinacoteca Comunale Tacchi-Venturi, a small but wondrous museum harboring the slippers of St. Celestine. I have visited many times, due to my affection for the Putto with Dolphin by Andrea del Verrocchio, set upon a modest fountain.

  03 MAY

  The putto, or cherub, is renowned for its spiral design, where all angles have equal significance. But it is his empathetic little face that continues to touch me deeply and draws me to return.

  04 MAY

  I am grateful for seemingly small things, as my glasses, without which I could not read.

  05 MAY

  The bookcase by my bed, each volume a journey.

  06 MAY

  In my travels I chanced upon this laundry basket in an alcove at Egeskov Castle, Denmark. The light was exquisite and the basket evoked memories of my mother hanging sheets on a line to dry in the sun.

  07 MAY

  This is my mother’s key ring. The B is for Beverly. She always carried it in the pocket of her housecoat.

  08 MAY

  Happy Mother’s Day to all mothers, holding keys to their children’s hearts.

  09 MAY

  J. M. Barrie was small for his age but distinguished himself as a remarkable storyteller. In adulthood he gave us the monumental Peter Pan. Barrie commissioned this statue in Kensington Gardens, where Peter had his first adventures. It is often surrounded by lively children eager to fly.

  10 MAY

  This sculpture in my garden of a boy with birds reminds me of one of the Lost Boys of Neverland. I imagine the bronze birds taking wing when no one is around to hinder potential magic.

  11 MAY

  Seneca Sebring and his father made me this little birdhouse for my bungalow. Perhaps one day I will find a tiny bronze nestling within.

  12 MAY

  Coffee in Zurich on the artist’s birthday.

  13 MAY

  This is the felt suit of Joseph Beuys, hanging on the wall of a gallery in Zurich. I took a Polaroid and slipped it into my pocket. Later I unpeeled it, revealing the suit of an artist whose work was his activism.

  14 MAY

  Bolshaya Sadovaya ulitsa no. 10, Moscow, where Mikhail Bulgakov created his satanic Professor Woland, anonymously sketched on the stairwell wall.

  15 MAY

  Mikhail Bulgakov, born this day in Kyiv, in 1891. He gifted humanity with a true masterpiece, The Master and Margarita, which includes the immortal statement “Manuscripts don’t burn.”

  16 MAY

  A city of burning days and consecrated nights, utterly transformed from the New York I once knew. And yet, somehow it is still my city.

  17 MAY

  My old Italian cowboy boots experienced much tramping about until the soles wore through. One evening they seemed to be urging me to abandon my work and take off again. I put them on, sat at my desk, and wrote through the night, adventure enough.